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The Real Day has Came
Saturday, June 30, 2007 10:04 PM


So the day has come...
and its the day the real day shown...
And here i am, typing out
To show to you guys whats my day were like...
and here goes!

Woke up early...
Starting a fresh day.
well actually...erm i were so tired and sleepy
i think twice want to go to school or not....
but i guess i have to
coz 10.30 am
i must report to the AVA room
To get ready( make-up and all )

Saw Faiz outside the general office
i sat beside him
i need help with my malay homework
i was like interviewing him asking him all those questions...
he helped me
then got some part i dont know how to do
i saw Rid approaching
talking bout the white and pink bunny(if im not wrong)
i ask him some help....
blah blah blah....

First period is History
Miss Hwang came late...
At the history class....
Me and Rovenna were chatting
Miss Hwang gave out some notes...
Then Fida came in....
She sat down
and started talking bout art stuff
suddenly she said to me to come for the art class after school
i said to her tat i couldnt come as i have perfomance at the INdoor Stadium
She said tat im 'pentingkan' malay dance then art
as i were taking n lvl this year

i replied back
that i had malay dance today.
and she replied back that make me felt hurt
my tears were starting to dripped
i couldnt stand it anymore
they were all not UNDERSTANDING!
like, comeon la...i got malay dance rite...came back late at night
then what she want me to do?
not to come for the performance and go for the art
Look, i could take care bout my art la...
so dont care bout me
Care bout your ART!

Second Period is Math
I sit beside Muhaimin
Then i asked him if he is going to the Indoor Stadium
He said that he gave the ticket to Khai
So i was okay with it
Then he said tat he is going as Khai couldnt go
and has to get the ticket back frm khai
So chat and laugh2...
doing our malay homework...
learn abit frm math...

then the third period came...Malay...
Mdm Sunita were asking who havent finished her holiday homework...
im just another 1 question and i finished
i noticed that aidillah is not in school...
thought tat she planned to come at 10.30....-_-"
she could at least ask me...
so i can come at 10.30 together with her....lerr...
So write and write...
Rais threw bottles at Fahmy...
when Mdm Sunita came in, Fahmy were about to get his revenge
when they accused Fahmy of throwing bottles at them...
they started first...
Lucky for Fahmy..he were saved...lol

so RECESS time at 10.30!
get a quick snack
and report to Ava room
saw Mr Zairin and his friends eating at the canteen
Didnt stop to chat with them
Just walk
And stop at one of the table as Muhaimin and Rid were calling me
So talk and talk...
And smile at the passer-by

then go to the ava room to put my bag
and change
people all looked as i went out frm the ava room to get change into my costume
so what i need to do
is just smile and move....
so change....help the others zipping...all tat stuff....

and went back....
wear foundation...
Ain asked me if Illah came already or not...
i just said that she is late...
and there she is...coming in with her jacket...
smiling innocently...-_-"
Rashidah were angry as she were late...
Some doing their hair
i need to rebond my fringe...
waiting for my turn....
Kak Mel is my make-up artist for my day....
and Raimi is my hairstyler for my day

So Rahimah came in
Telling us to get ready quickly...as the bus is already waiting
before we left
we need to practice at the hall first
so went up to the hall
take my props....
and go to my position...

after the practice.. everyone were tired..
me and illah still have time to chat as we dancing..lol
ruining my make-up
sweat alot!
and at the bus...Sabrina were askin to the bus driver
to on the air-con stronger...
ahh...tats felt better....
listen to my MP3
had a quick nap..

and we arrived at the Indoor Stadium!!
YAY!

go to our dressing room...
put all our stuff...
take photos and stuff....
Mr Zairin were asking if we want to eat first before wearing the Lipstick...
so they ate ....the room smelled!
coz they didnt throw away the rubbish...
EEWW!
i was going to vomit smelling the room....
Alfian were instucted to tie up the bag...
Mr Ridaudin were spraying perfume everywhere
Apply his perfume to each of the dancers...
Ahh...nice sey the smell...

The berita harian reporter came in
to interview us...
Asking ask questions like, What is special about our dance...
so talk and talk...
take picture...
So check our our photos at the NewsPaper!!!
lol....

so apply lipsticks...
and get ready to wait for our turn...
Play games ,'whats next' 'black magic' Chop Chilli Chop '
i like the part where by we play chop chili chop
it was hilarious!
so have some fun...

and the big show came!
its our turn!
I hugged the white and pink bunny!!!!!!! Lol...so CUTE!!!!!!
So the music is playing our song...
and we started dancing
the first part i were blur!
i missed one of the step...lol...
but get in line as soon as possible...
smile all the way
i remembered Mr Zairin advice
'' Just smile and dont stop ''
i did as it said...SMILE!
alot of people making lil mistake...
but its not odvious...haha

so rush to our room
and get our scarf for the FINALE!
So trying to get to our points
its hard coz the hallways is crowded by performance
from other school
see some of the other performance from Thailand and Malaysia...
Ndp Mass Display...
and then its the Finale!
i get into position...

and Here we goes!!!!
K.A.L.E.I.D.O.S.C.O.P.E

kaleidoscope, Kaleidoscope
A world of colours and dreams
Beleive,Beleive
There so much to see
Embrace the possibilities

The shapes revolve and turn
Into a melody
The colours move and turn
And tell of our story.....

This is our moment, our moment
A time for you and me
Live our dreams, discover
A tale of fantasy
Fulfil our aspirations
Be what we want to be
Let our dreams become reality

Kaleidoscope,Kaleidoscope
A world of colours and dreams
Believe,Believe
There so much to see
Embrace the possibilities...

Oh..................

This is our moment, our moment
A time for you and me
Live our dreams, discover
A tale of fantasy
Fulfil our aspirations
Be what we want to be
Let our dreams become reality

Let our hearts and minds be free
Let our voices join in harmony
Wait and see.....

This is our moment, our moment
A time for you and me
Live our dreams, discover
A tale of fantasy
Fulfill our aspirations
Be what we want to be
Let our dreams become reality

Let dreams become reality......


so thats it! Its end!
Wave at the crowds good bye...
and then they started playing the encore...
i wave at my mom...and friends....
Glad tat my mom could make it...
i really appreciated it!

so took picture...
then the malaysian band wanting to take picture with us...
so we took it...
stand at the platform and took our picture...
we sreamed...lol....
we enjoyed it very much...
then as we were going back to our rooms...
Some 'mats' frm Malaysian band want to shake hand
Mr Zairin said, dont bother about them and asked us to move on...


weirdos....lol...!

so take off our clothes...and stuff....
packed all the things...
some were asked to brought back the stuff and bring it back when the school is open...

i have nothing to pack...so just busy with my things...
i used the phones frm the room to call my mother...
asking how she is and all that....


get out and wave goodbye to the others...
and as we were walking to the concourse...
we were still waving goodbye...making noise..lol....
we waited for the bus to arrive...
the bus were late!
he go and send the other school first!
busted sey...!
want to get more money!
its 10.45 when the bus arrived
its late ...
Mdm Rahimah were pissed off
she were scolding at the bus driver...

i wipe out my make-up all that...
The bus stop at each Mrt Station...
first Yishun, Sembawang, Admiralty and Woodlands(last)
i stop at Admiralty...
saw my mother...
walk back with her...
we chat...and talk about the performance...
reached home at about 12 midnight...
tired and sleepy...
so going to get some sleep now...

thanks for reading....








Break Dancer
Dressing room
The hallway were packed...and it smelled!
Doin Illah hair...
Pose!

9:52 PM



Mr Zairin doing Hidayah hair

raimi and mr zairin...
Merak Kayangan post before the performance wif Rahimah
And tats me...

Preview Performance...
Friday, June 29, 2007 12:35 AM


To be at the school at 6.30am...
Cant be late.
I planned to wake up at 6.00am
but Illah called me at 5.45am...
So what the heck, i just took my towel and went to the toilet...
It took me 15 minutes to do all the stuff i need in the toilet...hehe
so i packed my things...
Say bye bye to my mum
open the gate
wore my slippers
and take OFF!

Took 962
Saw Wanie...(noticed her once we alight )
went in...
and as we walk, we say Illah, Ain Slide, and the others
Outside the malay dance room...
Bringing out the things needed to prepare...

so me and wanie walk to outside the FOyer
and saw the others waiting...
Almost 60% people were on time...
the others...were late....
They took taxi...as they knew they were late
the bus arrived at 7.05
get all the things inside the bus...
and we took off to our destination
which is the INDOOR STADIUM!!!

So we reached there at around 8.00
and saw Mr Zairin(our instructor) and Rahimi(senior)
waiting for us outside
The security were tight...
We get our pass and go to our room..
so as my previous post,
i got stated how the room looks likes...

so we didnt waste our time, and started wearing our costumes...
and all that...
wear foundation...
do our hair...
our hairstyler for tat day were Mr Zairin and Raimi
i rebond my fringe...so tat it would be nicer...
so after tat,
i go to Raimi to do my hair...

after tat...i help the others...putting on the other stuff to the hair...
after tat do my makeup...
Mr Abu is my makeup artist for the day...
Mr Bada draw my eyebrow as Mr Abu donnoe how to draw...
so okay la...overall...
my hair not tat nice...
but its ok...
its just a preview...
the actual day then i can make it better then today...

Having trouble wering my contact lens...
First Ernie help me...
Then Atieka...
after tat,
i lie on the sofa...
then Mr Zairin touched up my hair...
My tears were dripping as my eyes were in PAIN...
Got to run for the practice...
Mr Zairin said,'Wah...dah leh nampak sey...'
I didnt reply back, i were running to catch up with the others...

so getting ready behind the stage...
i were tired of running...
lose my energy very fast...
when its our time...
i just put on my fake smile and dance...
a smile where you couldnt get it ANYWHERE...

so i make a mistake where by i need to walk between atieka...
and i accidentally collide with her...
oh well...
as usual, im blur...
im exhausted before the change of song...
but i still smile...=P
so after the practice, we get back to our holding room
finished up my make-up...
and rest

So all the school had came...
and our performance is at 6.30 i think so...
so get ready...
and saw the pink and white bunny...so cute...!
so getting ready and ready....
and its our turn...after the band...
so the Emcees talk and talk
'' Lets welcome Sembawang Secondary School and JuYing Secondary School...''
then our song start....

after tat, i coughed coz my throat were dried...
so after the coughing scene....
we walk back to our room and get our scarf...for the FINALE!!!
Drink water fast-fast then went out to North-East door....
and watch some of the performance...

after the drums and everything, its time for the
FINALE!!!
get into positions to run in!
K.A.L.E.I.D.O.S.C.O.P.E!

The finale were fun...we wave good bye to everybody in the Stadium...
then they played the song again...
so we just dance AGAIN!
the finale dance were fun...i love it!
This is our moment, our moment

The Chorus:
A time for you and me
Live our dreams, discover
A tale of fantasy
Fulfil our aspirations
Be what we want to be
Let our dreams become reality.

its nice...after the Finale is over...
we went back to our room and packed our things...
took off all the clips frm my hair...
and Mdm Rashidah asked us to be faster
and wanting us to take off inside the BUS!
the bus were waiting outside...
we rushed here and there...
reached school at about 9.30
put all thins inside the AVA room...
bcoz tmr we going to used tat room...
so i better get some sleep now...
must get ready for tomorrow!
the REAL and EXCITING performance await you...


so stay tuned for the next post from me tomorrow...
thank you..


Thanks for reading





Oh MY GOSH!
Wednesday, June 27, 2007 6:58 PM


I cant believe it~!!!
im actually performing at Singapore Indoor Stadium!!!
ahhhh!!!!
Cant believe with my own very eyes when i was inside the stadium
and looking at the HUGE STAGE!
and the seating all!
It so HUGE!
There is also White and Pink Bunny!!
So cute!
The people who are under the costumes are the PRIMARY school student...so cute!
so tmr, hopefully i get to the chance to sneak out to take their photos!
im gonna HUGG~them!!(crazy -_-")

So as Mr Zairin were explaining...i didnt pays attention all looked at the bunny move around...lol...
He got to shout as they were playing their music too loud...
i get nervous actually, trying to hide it...
still cant believe tat im at the stadium...PERFORMING!
Taufik Batisah were there...all the celeb...such a BIG and a life time opportunity...

4 cameras...
wow...im going to see myself in TV...haha...
Going to wink at the camera...lol...
So we check our marking...
and then dance...
ours is the 2nd items...
so right after the Primary school band,
its our turn....

We Practice at the stage, trying to get use to it...
after the dance, my throat were dried...
i coughed...
not tat badly...this time...
just slightly...
after the first practice, we do it the last time...
the light were amazing...
its bright, colourful...have laser light...the stage were GORGEOUS!

so we went back to our personal V.I.P room....
its HUGE!
even bigger then my room...
there are 2 sofa...
2 ice-box
6-8 seats...
alot of mirrors...
air-con room...
have shower room
have toilet-bowl...
have EVERYTHING!

cool huh? hehe...i know...

so the SYF instructor came in...
Teaching the FINALE dance...
where by everybody who is performing going to dance...

its so LOoooooOoongg.......but the dance is a bit funny...lol

its mix...dance....

so we learn it..
i was tired..
my head hurt...
its like, my head is boiling...
but i must memorize the dance step...
dont want to ashame my own race...lol(malay)

heehee...so tmr is the Preview performance
every people frm each school going to watch it...all principals...and teachers and student...uncle and aunties....

lol....

so going to get prepare...see you guys tmr...
bye bye.... i will tell u the experience i had, tmr....bye

thanks for reading....


Mizella

Beggin Day
Monday, June 25, 2007 8:40 PM


So my title is Begging day...
bcoz this is the day where by i beg for so many people...
haissssssssshhhhh......
Me and Illah begged Mdm Rahimah to help out in the Malay Dance
Welcoming Dance...
and it were denied....
I felt dissapointed, actually...
I hate the RAJA! ( Gi jual roti prata ah! )

We want to help, and she didnt allowed us....
what the use....
so my second beggin gones on....

I need someone to print me something....
Its hard...
coz some people dont have printer....
some dont have INK.....
Some printer can't be used....

all sort of reason...you name it...

but what the heck...
Tmr the T-shirt printer going to come to my school...
So im going to make sure
that ONLY ME AND ILLAH
will be talking to the Printer...
NO ONE can....
i dont like so many people to crowd....
RIMAS!
i could go angry easily....and headache.....!

so as im typing right now,
im asking people who are willing to help me....
but some people arent tat helpful....
WHERE ARE ALL THE HELPFUL PEOPLE GONE TO?!

i guess the helpfulness inside ourself are being eaten away by our EGO...


so theres nothing much to say actually...

My form-teacher said to release us at 2:05pm....but she didnt...she released us at 2:15pm!!
I actually want to see their dance...
So once the Fa**ng bell rang,
i took my bag and dashed out of the classroom....
Ee Wen were behing me and shouting why u are in a HURRY?!

I didnt stop...i juz keep on running...
The running bride? LOL....haha!
So there i were at the 1st level outside the General Office....
And there Cikgu Zairin saw me...and wave...(cair aku)haha!
thought he didnt noticed me....lol...!frm FAR!
he has a very good eye-sight...yeah...seriously...

why he leave so early...sedih sey...LOL!
so i saw Illah and Farah at the second floor calling my name...
so i went up to see the Indon people perform....
I missed the performance frm my sch mly dance peepz....
i actually wan to see they perform in their full-dressed dance...

After the performance, proceed to the Room...
the guy frm the Indon some good looking lar...okay2 je...hehe...
so i talk with the indon girls...
asking their name all tat...
trying to be Friendly..and not to look very evil at the same time...also...
after tat....they had to leave for an interview with the Mediacorp...

Why cant we get interview?
We won gold with honour!!!!!
sheeeesh....
im jealous actually....its unfair...
so after they left,....
me and Fakirah ran back to the room to grab the food....
the food is Indon Stlye food...
AYAM PENYET!!! my favourite....
i washed my hand and start to eat...
Bismillah.....
nyum nyum nyum!

i stuffed some sweet into my pockets....when its full,
i transfer the sweet to my bag...then stuff again....hehe....
FREE SWEET pe....cant left it alone...

after malay dance practice...
i go and play Muhaimin's PSP
I love the game car racing...
but if i race in real life.
i cant live very long....lol...
coz my car will always get CRASHED!

so there it is my,....

my beggin day....
i hoope it end right now..
Pity me lar....


Thanks for reading :)

Saturday, June 23, 2007 9:52 PM


well, today is not really much thing to do...
so since im online rite now...
im going to post
SOMETHING...
so...today is saturday...blah blah..blah....
and at 4.30
i suppose to meet Illah at Chong Pang outside the bank...
So im so bored waiting for the bus,
I decided to call Illah that i had arriver and waited for her...for so
LOooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong

but what the heck...
she arrived first....
and she waited for me....and trying to find me....
and she
called me
I were inside the bus, going to alight....
and she saw me,....
with this -_-" face on her...sort off....'
and she said...
'' ye,...." think so, cant remember...LoL!...

i jus put a smile...
And proceed to our destinations....
We didnt receive a map or anything...
Just a SMS frm some friend on where the shop is...
We going to a shop where they print T-shirts....
So the SMS said, Walk pass The Light Shop(Kedai Lampu)
Then walk straight....
And then you will saw a KOPITIAM...
and you will see the SHOP...

so we walk...and walk....and walk....
BUT
we couldnt found the SHOP...
so we walk, and walk, and walk,
and search, and search, and search,.....
BUT
where the SHOP!?

So we call our friiend...and asked...
where is the SHOP?
we were standing right infront of an Open Stage...
i said, Im facing the stage, now which way should i go?
Right or Left?
But, weak communication...
so i decided to buy Ice Kacang...
But Illah said...better not...becoz "later..........................................come"...
so we walk to the same path....
around and around......
we passed the shop for more then 4 times...
and still,

we didnt noticed...it...
untill...
i read a signboard which is a A4 size....
its so SMALL!!!
ergh....
Then i call Illah,
Hey! there it is....
and illah said....
maner?(where?)
so we read...the board....
and the shop owner came....
and ask...,'yes, want to make a Class T-shirt?'
we ignore...for a second...
and then...illah said.
err, may we see the ................... t-shirt?
so we talk and discuss....
it is about $18...at first...
then we change the fabric to COTTON...
and he said, $12!
so expensive.....!!!
but illah and me try to bargain....and bargain....trying to get below $10...
i was like, want to take my stuff and leave....
but, we really wan to make the T-shirt, our malay dance t-shirt
which i DESIGN...

after that, i go and buy some water...
we are so thirsty...
bcoz we talk and talk.....
untill there is one part,
where by...
i get so bored...
i decided to do something.....
i shall not tell it....but i will....someday....

well, tats all.....


thanks for reading

Wednesday, June 6, 2007 1:27 PM


School Holiday??!!

It is not a holiday for me....
Sad xia...
EveryDay gOt aRt...
Need To wAkE up 8.00 in the morning tO GeT ReaDY!!

Haha, sometimes 'sengaje' wake up late....

actually rite, i donnoe what to type...
since im in the LIBRARY rite now....
I give a visit to my BLOG....
and type this nonsense...
aiyoh...
what ah, i wan to type somemore....
umm...
let me think...
You have any idea??...
If don't have, juz read on...
If have, juz keep it to yourself...
I dont wish to know...
Mwuhahahahahaha!!!...
Lame...
I know...
You dont have to tell me...
yah...
i already know...
i know im lame...
You dont have to repeat it....

hehe

argh....
.aaaaaaa....
....rrrrrrr.
.ggggggg....
....hhhhhhh.


ARGH!!! ARGH!!! ARGH!!! ARGH!!!

CRAZY?
I dont think so...
You think so?
You also?
and you??!!

Sheesh!...... anyhow think......

You dont have to tell me...
im not CRAZY!

hahahahahahahah


kie la...

tats all....


bye bye....

MIe,

MIzella