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M I Z E L L A
there's nothing wrong with my name.
If you think you know me,
read my blog and think again.
I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It.
I'm the only witness
and the only person who can judge my life.
This is my blog so Click here if you hate it.
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i'm Mizella.not my realname
will be LEGALLY 18 on 15 october.
í am a simple girl,
with a simple life.

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Sunday, September 28, 2008 10:11 PM Supergirl by Saving Jane I'm the life of the party So contagious All the boys wanna catch me But I'm just playin' [one] One, Two come and see what I can do [two] Two, Three everybodys after me [three] Three, Four let me tell you what's in store Lets go, everybody on the floor I'm supergirl I'm everywhere I'm flashing lights They stop and stare I'm fabulous I'm on a roll I'm in your head and everybody knows I'm, I'm, I'm supergirl I'm the perfect disaster You can't stop me Coming faster and faster But you just watch me [you just watch me] [five] Five, Six don't you want a little fix [six] Countdown, get a little crazy now [nine] Nine, Ten see me work the room and then Hold on ready here we go again I'm supergirl I'm everywhere I'm flashing lights They stop and stare I'm fabulous I'm on a roll I'm in your head and everybody knows I'm, I'm, I'm supergirl Walking every wire Set the world on fire No one's shining brighter Oh Oh Oh I'm supergirl I'm fabulous I'm on a roll I'm in you head and everybody knows I'm everywhere Those flashing lights they stop and stare I'm fabulous I'm in your head and everybody knows I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm supergirl I'm, I'm, I'm supergirl I'm, I'm, I'm supergirl I have been searching for this song since morning . One of my friend help me to download it . Thanks alot , Lizam! 9:28 PM sheesh. So sleepy! Yesterday slept at 4.30am . I cough and cough till I vomit . like shit , right ?! Bulimia? haha! NO la! I didn't force it all out . It came out all of a sudden . My throat is in PAIN! Today , aku bingit siol! Bising - bising pat rumah ! I dont entertain this kind of shit la! Uat aku marah je... bersabar je la . today , seriously I am in a bad mood . cepat marah! KNS la~ Bingit la aku duduk pat rumah nie ! buto . Saturday, September 27, 2008 2:07 PM eee! best nye! 4 more days dah hari raye! yay! sheesh~ ! one day hari raya. the next day , school . worst of all , english *fuck* mock exam ! I have a Hari Raya song . On the first day of Hari Raya , I say sorry to each of my family members . Makan Lontong . Makan rendang . and Collect duit raya~ On the second day of Hari raya , I wake up at 6 am ! Brush my teeth! Go and shower! and wore my School Uniform! Composed by : mizella Lyric by : Mizella Sang by : Mizella Inspiration by : Christmas song Thursday, September 25, 2008 2:34 PM Its supposed to be our Girls night out today . It seems that things just doesn't turn out right . I had really looking forward to it . And this is what I get . Reasons , reasons and more REASONS~ ! Well , just forget it . Postponed here and postponed there . Why can't you guys make up your mind? I am really , really looking forward to this ... I am so disappointed . Friends will come And friends will go, The season change And it will show. I will age and so will you . But our friendship stays strong and true ... Wednesday, September 24, 2008 10:45 AM I just couldn't believe what I had actually done ... It was raining heavily . Now, it is drizzling . Slightly drizzling . The wind were blowing gently adding to the coldness . I was shivering. I could not handle the coldness anymore . I just had to do it . I had to. There is no other way for me . I tried to call my mom , but she didn't picked up the phone . I was alone outside , shivering to death . It was so cold , so cold that I could not take it anymore . I just had to do it . I don't care about the consequences that is going to land on me . All I want is to get warm up and fight the shivering cold . I look all around me , for any passer-by . I don't want anybody to caught me in the act of breaking into my own house . Quietly , I slight opened my brother's room windows . It was not locked . I took the opportunity to break in. How did I break in? I am not going to tell you . I threw in my school bag first and then I help up myself to go in . It felt very painful , very painful . Breaking into my OWN house . I was wondering , what if someone break in into my own house? How would I react? How would I feel? I promised myself that I would never ever do that again. 10:28 AM I just couldn't believe what I had actually done ... It was raining heavily . Now, it is drizzling . Slightly drizzling . The wind were blowing gently adding to the coldness . I was shivering. I could not handle the coldness anymore . I just had to do it . I had to. There is no other way for me . I tried to call my mom , but she didn't picked up the phone . I was alone outside , shivering to death . It was so cold , so cold that I could not take it anymore . I just had to do it . I don't care about the consequences that is going to land on me . All I want is to get warm up and fight the shivering cold . I look all around me , for any passer-by . I don't want anybody to caught me in the act of breaking into my own house . Quietly , I slight opened my brother's room windows . It was not locked . I took the opportunity to break in. How did I break in? I am not going to tell you . I threw in my school bag first and then I help up myself to go in . It felt very painful , very painful . Breaking into my OWN house . I was wondering , what if someone break in into my own house? How would I react? How would I feel? I promised myself not to do that kind of stuff anymore. And I will keep that promise for the rest of my life. Tuesday, September 23, 2008 2:33 PM When I grow up - The Pussycat Dolls Boys call you sexy And you don't care what they say See everytime you turn around they screaming your name Boys call you sexy And you don't care what they say See everytime you turn around they screaming your name Now I've got a confession When I was young I wanted attention And I promised myself that I'd do anything Anything at all for them to notice me But I aint complaining We all wanna be famous So go ahead and say what you wanna say You don't know what its like to be nameless Want them to know what your name is Cus see when I was younger I would say When I grow up I wanna be famous I wanna be a star I wanna be in movies When I grow up I wanna see the world Drive nice cars I wanna have groupies When I grow up Be on tv People know me Be on magazines When I grow up Fresh and clean Number one chick when I step out on the scene Be careful what you wish for cus you just might get it You just might get it You just might get it Be careful what you wish for cus you just might get it You just might get it You just might get it They use to tell me I was silly Until I popped up on the t.v I always wanted to be a superstar And knew that singing songs would get me this far But I ain't complaining We all wanna be famous So go ahead and say what you wanna say You don't know what its like to be nameless Want them to know what your name is Cus see when I was younger I would say When I grow up I wanna be famous I wanna be a star I wanna be in movies When I grow up I wanna see the world Drive nice cars I wanna have groupies When I grow up Be on tv People know me Be on magazines When I grow up Fresh and clean Number one chick when I step out on the scene Be careful what you wish for cus you just might get it You just might get it You just might get it Be careful what you wish for cus you just might get it You just might get it You just might get it I see them staring at me Oh im a trendsetter Yes this is true cus what I do, no one can do it better You can talk about me, cus im a hot topic I see you watching me watching me and I know you want it When I grow up I wanna be famous I wanna be a star I wanna be in movies When I grow up I wanna see the world Drive nice cars I wanna have groupies When I grow up Be on tv People know me Be on magazines When I grow up Fresh and clean Number one chick when I step out on the scene Be careful what you wish for cus you just might get it You just might get it You just might get it Be careful what you wish for cus you just might get it You just might get it You just might get it When I grow up I wanna be famous I wanna be a star, I wanna be in movies When I grow up I wanna see the world Drive nice cars I wanna have groupies When I grow up Be on tv People know me Be on magazines When I grow up Fresh and clean Number one chick when I step out on the scene Be careful what you wish for cus you just might get it You just might get it You just might get it Be careful what you wish for cus you just might get it You just might get it You just might get it 10:20 AM Things to do on the September 22th : Have a haircut . Go shopping with my 2 best friends . Well , that is the 2 things that I need to do yesterday . I had a really lots and lots of fun . Firstly , after the Science Physic paper, I called Farah's home . Her brother picked it up , and said that she is still sleeping . Farah is a SLEEPY head! Allan's father passed away . His father funeral were held under the block 324 . So the whole class of 5A2 plus some from my class went to pay out respect . "Allan , be strong boy! Be strong!" Called Farah again , using my handphone . She is still sleeping . So , since Mira want to meet farah , Me and illah said , " why not we meet her too? " So I tagged along with them . So , Mira asked Farah's brother to wake her up . Eventually , she woke up . Farah is really a sleepy head! She said to us not to come up to her house . So , illah , mira and me ... CAMWHORE! Haha! Our camwhore is really funny . It is animated . A hillarious animated picture that we created . I will upload it when it is done . Lets get STRAIGHT to the point . Went to Ang Mo Kio's Cash Converter . To "teman" illah . Along the way , farah been complaining that she is not feeling well . She felt like she is going to hurl any moment . So I felt a little bit scared , as I dont like to see people vomit right in front of me . anyway , I dont want to talk about that . Lets get to another POINT . er , withdraw some money from POSB Bank . How many ? I dont want to tell you . So went to This Fashion . Eye-shopping only . Went to another shop , I bought a black cardigan with a hook on the back . shop and shop . Bought some Dove Milk Conditioner . 2 shirt , Green and Cobalt Blue . after that , Went to Yishun (Chong Pang) Illah , bought some cool shades . Nice la her shades~ You can buy it from her for 20 bucks! Cheap! Cheap! Haha! So after that, went to the Hair Salon . Ask the auntie to cut my hair . V shape . So she trimmed it down 1st . And then ,ask me if this length is okay or not . I said , it is okay for me . So she continue cutting it to V shape . After that , I requested for wash a blow . Syiok sey she shampoo my hair . I felt so relax . I slept for awhile . Then rinse off the shampoo of my hair . Blow dry , and viola~ ! Nice nice , hair for me :D So after all of that , I went home . Thanks illah , for accompany me . Took 969 to Admiralty Mrt . After that , took 912 back home ;D My sisted misunderstood me when she saw me with an UNKNOWN boy . She thought that he is my boyfriend --ll . what the heck . So I said NO , alot of time till I argue with her . She still thinks he is . Comeon la , I dont have boyfriend la dey~ My heart only belongs to Taufik Batisah! Haha yeah right.. SO , i guess thats all for now . and , thanks for reading ;D My hair , My hair is short now . I felt so light~ Sunday, September 21, 2008 5:04 PM The Fun and the part that I really love to share with you guys . My art time . I love my paint brush . I don't care if I need to spend over 50 bucks to get a collection of Paint Brush . Abu wanted to play a prank on Eshaq . So he put a dried spilled paint over his board . So when Eshaq came back from the library , he was really really shocked to the MAX! I was giggling at the back . Abu , you are so bad . It was only a stupid little prank after all . Edited some of the parts . Tattoo on my hand? wow . as if . Haha! I really love this part of all! Me , rovenna and Cassandra are posing - acting like a GEEK! So I pulled up my skirt up above my waist and both of them pulled up their shorts . Haha! The Geek in the ___________ . Thats all for now . Nothing much to say . I love all the wonderful memories I had in art . I don't love art actually . 4:55 PM Nothing much to do currently at home . Came back home late yesterday . I am so tired and sleepy . Need to revise on my Physic paper . Physic exam tomorrow . Oh well , I need to start on my Prelim Art Examination . I did not even draw 1 . I dont know la~ I am so Fuck up with my art . Pissed off~ ! 9 more days to Hari raya! Friday, September 19, 2008 4:02 PM er , I am lazy to type out . Nothing much to say . I just make a friend of my angry at me . I dont know what to do . it is my fault . I know . oh well~ Miz , you done it again . I just dont learn my lesson . repeating the same old stupid mistake . I am sorry. Done my art , my teacher edit one of my board . I cried , it is UGLY! omg , go and die la . Make me cry only . Kanasai . I did touch up abit , but it gots WORST~ ! Buto la . happy 17th Birthday to you . Nothing much to say . Bye . Wednesday, September 3, 2008 9:37 PM And yes , it is not completed yet . I am SO lazy to edit here and there . Tomorrow is the submission date . I must finish it all by noon tomorrow. Oh well . My title for my artwork is Contours . Its about a girl who is stress and often cries as she could not fulfill her dreams . The blue-face girl is represented as the tears of her dreams . And the two halved faces at the side is actually shouting out - stress . Too gone thru all those things ... As you can see, the painting technique I used for the halved-face is a Chinese painting technique . Which is using cross-strokes . My art teacher , Mr Gazaly taught me that painting technique . As per usual , I love to explore new and exciting things. The blue thingy that you are wondering what exactly it is .. Is actually .. a figure , with a hand over the head . I use a warm - cool blue to represent insecure , lonely and alone . Something that makes the girl felt insecure in everything she do . With no confidence and all . And that girl is me . I am expressing my way of living through this art work . It tells me the story of my life and all . So thats it . Days and days of hard work . I hope it would pay off . Tuesday, September 2, 2008 9:23 PM On the Teacher's day ... My school held a cross-country (running near the neighbourhood* lame ass*) So last year which is 2007 I managed to get in 3rd place . Yeah ... 3rd la sey~ have medal! Bronze --ll . so this year ... guess what I get...? 1st la ! Haha! Haha! Haha! ( syok sendiri ) No la , this year I just get 2nd :( Damm it that girl ! Overtake me. I dont know la her name , her voice sounded like King Kong in pain . But , nevermind . She is in sec 4 after all. Must give some chance to my junior . haha! My foot la. So starting , I already a bit crazy here and there . Too excited and all . firstly , I just jog . COZ I am very LAZY . My friends were all at the back , walking instead of jogging . So I jog and jog ... letting all my "babats" jumping up and down . At the peak of giving up ... I keep on running . A few meters before the ending point , I sped up ! woohh! "That fat girl sure can run! " Of course I can run ,you freakos . Fat girl can run! Eventhough others said that I am not fat . Which I think they are LYING to me ! And this girl , trying to speed up to get into the finishing point faster then me . but too bad girly , I am fastest! Haha! Illah , Mervin , Mizella and Syafiq The JA-KONS Me Pizza! Monyet makan pizza Mata gebe makan pizza . er, rose rose and more stupid rose . er , dig your nose first? Bow to the Raja! The dum dum audience . Happy Teacher's day ! I was there shouting out . Abu la~ ! tepi is Eshaq. Middle is mervin . tepi is Anugerah Its my art teacher! Handsome? nahh . From the top-view . Yeahh people , I guess . Thats all . Trying my very best , To reach my goals . Every sweats and fats, To get where I am standing now .